Paisley Lennox. That was the name that had been running through my mind for month. Three months to be exact. How did that happen, you may ask? I have no clue, but it wasn't something I liked to tell people. She had been in my head since that night so many nights. The night I knew she lost something important to her. Something that I now held. This girl was driving me nuts. I even stopped trying to get with girls, that's how screwed my mind was.

Often times, I'd see her around camp. I could only get a few glimpses or glances, but what surprised me was that she would send them back at me. I wasn't about to go up to her, so she had to come to me. However, I knew that eventually I was going to have to do the approaching, because, well, I needed to speak to her. For some reason, I actually cared what was wrong with her. God, this girl was going to be the death of me.

The lake, it was so relaxing. This was the place I tended to go whenever I needed to think of something. However, as I was on my way up there, I was not expecting to run into Paisley. Maybe this was the only time I was going to talk to her, so I figured I should make the most of it. As much as I wanted to, I couldn't make my feet move towards her. It was like super-strength wasn't enough, that I need to punch myself all the way over there.

Finally, I made my way over to sit next to her, and I didn't even look at her. Just at the lake. "Looks like I'm not the only one that comes here to think." Looking over at her, I gave her a smile, before noticing that she was crying. "What's wrong with you?" What, did she realize that God didn't exist and that this was just some silly fantasy? Whatever the reason was, I wanted to know what was wrong with her.

I could tell that Paisley had been crying, and I was confused as to why she was. There was no reason someone like her should cry. It made her look depressed, and it was better when she seemed to be happy. Paisley turned to look at me, and I merely stared right back at her. What was on her mind? Was she going to say exactly what was on her mind? What did it have to do with me?

Why the hell wouldn't she just tell me what was going on? Instead she would just give me a look like she was in pain, and then look back down. It was so fucking weird, and it made me want to punch someone. In fact, I think I wanted to just punch the next random dude I pass -- I could never hit a girl. Still, she would eventually tell me what was going on.

Then, she asked a question that kind of left me stunned. "Of course I used protection, do I look like a moron?" However, I figured there was no way in Hell she could be pregnant, even though I didn't remember the condom breaking, doesn't mean it didn't. "Okay, what the hell is going on Paisley?"

I couldn't get Paisley to stop crying, and to be honest, I had no idea if I wanted her to stop. The crying was scaring me, of course, but it was better than her screaming at me. I could imagine her doing either or at this moment in time. Why was she spazzing out so bad though? That was the main thing I wanted to know. Was there a reason for her to be freaking out on me? I didn't do anything wrong. Hell, I hadn't spoken to her in months.

When she told me why she was upset, and accused me of lying, I glared at her, stunned mostly. "You need to calm the fuck down. I didn't lie! It probably broke." I thought back to it, and I honestly couldn't remember what happened to the condom. Maybe it was broken, and that was why she was knocked up. Still, I know damn well that I used a condom. I wouldn't do that to a girl, not ever. "I would never not use one, I swear. I always use one."

Still, the things she said rang through my head. She was pregnant. By me? That was impossible. Well, I knew it was mine, but I couldn't believe I knocked someone up. It was a sobering thought. Honestly, I thought this wouldn't happen until I was twenty-seven, and finally found the girl to settle down with. Not now. I'm too young to be a dad. Not even twenty yet. And to think about it, she is only sixteen or seventeen. I ruined her life. Fucking sex, never again would I have it until I'm married.

"What are we gonna do?"

I winced back a little bit when he cursed at me. I scooted back away from him just in case he'd explode into rage. I was scared he was going to blow-up on me and start screaming at me. And from what I heard, stress isn't good when you're pregnant.

When he mentioned that he swore that he used one, I felt a little bit better. Knowing that he was responsible enough to think about protection before getting down and dirty let me know he doesn't just think about himself. Thinking with his brain and not his dick. I wouldn't be surprised if he tried to call off sex until marriage, although I think that's highly unlikely. Even though it hurt, I think I was pleasured for a few seconds, and I believe in was the best few seconds of my life. But was it worth it now?

He asked me what we were going to do. I think that was a pretty stupid question to ask a girl like me. I try to blink away the tears, that way I could glare at him like he was an idiot. It's not like I wanted get an abortion, I would never be able to do that. "I don't know what were going to do. It's not like I planned for this to happen, I don't have a storyboard to show you, or a play-by-play to explain. I only found out an hour ago, so stop putting all this pressure on me!"

Yelling at him wasn't getting us out of this predicament, I realize that. But can you blame me? I'm sixteen and pregnant, I think I deserve a break down. I continued to glare at him before I close my eyes and I shake my head. I wiped away the tears and I lowered my voice. "I'm sorry." I apologized, "I did think about it for a little while. You know Ginny? She's in Cabin 5, she has accelerating powers and I was thinking about her speeding up the pregnancy. Just up until the eighth month."I get on my knees and I kneel in front of him, and I grab his hands and hold them. Letting him know as much as he is here to help me, I'm here to help him.

"I know how stupid and improbable this sounds," I say sniffling. "But I can't handle six more months of this. I can't handle this getting around camp and people hearing about it. Six months of rumors and people talking behind my back. Our backs. So we could skip all the way to the end of the pregnancy and then we could just give the baby up for adoption."

Those words escaped my mouth before I could ask him what he wanted to do. Adoption was sort of a heavy topic for some. But I'm not able to take care of a baby, I'm only sixteen. I don't think he'd want to take care of baby while he's trying to live his life. We can't raise a baby together. We're not even together. It was a one night stand and that's all that it will ever be.

Once again, she was yelling at me. "Would you please stop yelling at me!? Its starting to scare me!" I half-yelled back. God damn, this woman could scare a ghost back to its grave. Was this what I was going to be dealing with for nine months? Hell no, she was not going to get to yell at me like this all the time. No way in hell. She was not going to be screaming at me like this the entire time. Its just as much her fault as it is mine.

She then calmly apologized, and I nodded. "Its okay. I'm sorry as well." Paisley began talking about that red headed witch. She wanted to speed up the pregnancy? Well what the hell were we waiting for? That would be a lot easier, and a lot less yelling. I needed to keep a cool head throughout this entire conversation. "If that's what you want to do, then we'll do it. Its your body, its your choice." I held her hands like she held mine, and just gave her a look that I hoped explained how I wasn't going to let her go through this alone.

When Paisley began explaining why she wanted to do it, I nodded, listening to her. She was afraid of what people may think. Well, that explained wanted to do it. She was one of those people, who was going to end up resenting the baby. Of course, her intentions were known when she talked about putting the baby up for adoption. I couldn't let her do that, I just couldn't.

Could I really raise a baby? Was it possible that I could be a great father? I think it was. I wanted to give my baby the best life possible, and if they always resented their adoptive parents, then they would never have the happy life I could try to provide for my child. "No." My voice cracked, and I could barely keep myself from trying. "If you don't want to be a mother, then don't be. I'll take care of the baby. If you don't want anything to do with our baby, then you can sign over rights. I want my baby, so let me take him or her if you don't want to."

~This is getting intense~

OOC; I know ( Munches on popcorn)

~To Mookie and Hunter: YOU DON'T EVEN GO HERE! No but seriously, no more posting in this topic. It's strictly for Paiden. Although, I love how you guys find this so interesting ;]

I squeezed his hands little tighter. I was grateful that he was so understanding on why I would love to skip all the Preggo Baby Mama drama. I gave him a sweet smile and it almost made me want to kiss him, but I had to restrain myself. You're not together, Paisley. You can't just do that. Instead, I just rubbed my thumb over his knuckles as I was holding his hands.

He told me that he was able to take care of the baby. He said that he'd keep it as his own and that he'd be a single father. I shook my head and I scoffed at his statement. I wasn't going to let him do that. What? He'd be going around camp holding the little 'it' and I'd be known as the girl who abandoned her child. I wasn't going to build my reputation as that.

"No." I calmly argued. I let go of his hands and crossed them across my chest. "I'm not going to let you do that. I'm not going to let you ruin your life just to take care of something that you're not really ready for. What about University? What are you going to do when that comes around? I'm not going to let you become one of those guys that won't be able to pay the rent while supporting a child because he can't get a decent job. And why couldn't he get a decent job, because he was too busy trying to become a man by thinking he's ready to take care of a child. And if you still refuse, I'll sign it off anyway to someone who is financially and emotionally secure."

You know, I had a feeling she was going to agrue with me on this, but I didn't honestly think she'd use that agrument. The whole 'I won't let you give your life away' one. Honestly, she was like an open book, and to be honest, I knew she cared way too much about what people think about her. I wondered if she realized, this wasn't about her anymore. If she didn't, I was about to give her a rude awakening.

"Paisley, get off your horse and think about it." I said, rather rudely. "Last I checked, this wasn't about you anymore, and honestly you can say that you know that, stop lying. You're one of those people who only cares about themselves. Newsflash, Paisley, I used to be like that too. Only now, I want what's best for our child, and that will be with me. Trust and believe, I have the funds to take care of him or her, and just because you don't want anything to do with him or her, doesn't mean that I don't. You don't know me, so don't assume I can't take care of a baby."

I was pissed, beyond belief. It was harsh, what I said, and as soon as it escaped my mouth, I felt bad. I was pretty sure that was obvious on my face. The guilt over what I had just said to her -- Paisley, the mother of my unborn child. "Sorry, I didn't mean most of that. Just give me the chance. I can prove I can take care of our child, and if you don't believe me after that chance, then you can give him or her up for adoption."

He started talking about how I only care and think about myself, when that wasn't the deal at all. I was thinking about him and the baby. I cared about him, not like that, but in a way I did. He was my first and I'll always have a secret connection with him. It'll always be there. So what he said hurt a lot. It made my heart inside bunch up into a little ball.

"I'm not trying to be the bad guy here. I'm only thinking of you and whoever this little person is inside my stomach. So, I want what's best for our child too as well. And what that is, is for he or she or whatever it is, to be with a family that will be able to provide it food and whatever it wants. And I for one, know that I won't be able to do that." I calmly explained to him trying to fight back tears.

"Aiden," I pleaded, "Please, just listen to me." I grabbed onto his hands and I pulled him close into me. I rested my face on his shoulders and I sobbed into them. I don't know what's making open up to him. I barely knew him, but he's seen me in my worst.

She was trying to get me to listen, when in reality, I don't think she was listening to me at all. If she was, she wouldn't of been able to say any of that. Paisley didn't know my money situation, so how would she know that I couldn't provide for the baby? Fact of the matter was, she didn't. She should really give me a chance to explain myself to her before she decides I can't be a father.

"Paisley, trust me, feeding a baby, giving it what it wants, it won't be an issue." How did she not assume that because I'm a whore I must be a spoiled little brat, which I'm not saying I'm not, but hey, she didn't even ask. I found that sort of rude of her. You'd think she'd be asking if he had the funds before deciding to not even let him take care of the baby. "Trust me, I have money, a lot of it. You don't have to worry about any of it. I'll take care of our baby. Please, Paisley, trust me."

She took my hands and pulled me closer than I was before. Before I could even react, she was crying into my shoulder. "Shh, Paisley don't cry." For once I was comforting someone, and it was kind of odd. Still, I pulled her onto my lap and just held her while she cried. This was the worst thing I could of ever done to a person.

Aiden tried to reassure me that everything was going to be okay and that he was going to be able to take of this 'child'. I wanted to believe him, I really did. But it was too hard to. I had trust issues, I've come to terms with that. It's not like I didn't want to take care of the baby. It's just that I couldn't. Imagine what my parents would say if they found out that I got knocked up.

I could picture it right now, "Your a sinner. You will go to Hell. Let's pray for you..." Then they'd make me sleep at Church just so I could be in peace with God again. I didn't want a life like that, but I just grew up believing. I guess this is God's punishment for fornication and having sex before marriage.

I lifted my head off of his shoulders and looked at him deeply. I want to trust him, I do. "Aiden, I want to trust you, believe me. But I can't do this. I'm sorry." I gave him a chaste kiss on the forehead before I got up and I walked away.

More tears falling down my cheeks and I quickly wiped them away. I decided to go look for Ginny, and then all of this will be over.

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